As I just finished watching Into the Wild I can only agree with Eddie Veder (who is the composer of the entire WONDERFUL soundtrack of the film) when he talks about writing the songs for this movie, he stated:
"It was startling how easy it was for me to get into his head. I found it to be uncomfortable how easy it was, because I thought I'd grown up."
Well... probably I´ve grown up too... not too sure if that´s the case... I think this year is a different year for me. I started 2013 very naively, without knowing how my life was going to change. I year full of dreams come true, a year full of love, friends and surprises. A year of CHANGE and a year that ended with me knowing for the first time in my life I don´t care much for many things I used to care for before. After my 2nd divorce (that happened just recently) I´ve been wondering about the true meaning of LOVE. I haven´t come to any specific explanation for it. (if I do I´ll let you all know about it). I still don´t know what´s the real meaning of many things. I don´t understand how is to be friends with your parents.... or how is it to try to understand them. I still don´t understand the desire for having a baby (have truly had it briefly once in my life) and I´m fine with not feeling like that, I don´t understand the meaning of the way we relate with each other as human beings in general and I don´t understand why as many of us have so much some of us can have so little and that no one gives a shit about it (among other things I still don´t understand).
I smile a lot because I like the way it feels, I hug everybody (YOU ALL KNOW THAT) because I like to feel close to everyone who crosses my path. I eat with my hands because I like to lick my fingers and I don´t brush my hair very often anymore because I don´t care. I say bad words in Spanish and I don´t know yet if being right is what I want to be... I guess I don´t care I just want to be happy.
Tomorrow I´m kinda starting this new Year... full of FREEDOM, LOVE AND STRENGTH. I don´t know much of what´s out there for me but I´m sure I´ll keep smiling and hugging everyone. I still believe in LOVE and I´m sure I´ve seen it. My sister is fearing my 3rd marriage cause she doesn´t like to put on high heels and frankly me neither, I don´t believe I will get marry again (I just like going to weddings to dance and eat and drink for free) but to be honest mine doesn´t excite me much (I didn´t have one in any of the previous occasions) I just believe LOVE is there and it will find me. I am surrounded by LOTS OF LOVE anyways so this doesn´t worry me much.
From my little kingdom and with my empty pockets I´m today as happy as i´ve ever been and this movie just made me feel like I´m not so alone in feeling like flying away to keep my quest for what is really important in life. I´ve decided I don´t want to have a bigger kingdom. This one is enough for me. As for my dreams... those will keep getting bigger, those I´ll make sure that come true.
WATCH ME FLY AWAY HIGH HIGH IN THE SKY YA´LL! AND AS SOMEONE VERY WISE JUST RECENTLY SAID.... "catch me if you can"
WHAT AN INSPIRING MOVIE! (I also want a magic bus)